WHAT IS LOVE

I've been hurt so many times in relationships its not even funny.......I've also been in love with a few special ladies......but what is love......is it sumthing you can feel or see or even taste lol I'm nasty.....anyway I really need an answer to what love is......cause I feel if I'm here for a person and I cry and always wanna be with this person or even can't sleep without her near me is love......I felt like that Toward. Every female I gave my heart to.....I think since me and my mom doesn't have the relationship we use to I just give my love to a female I'm close with or I'm with at the time......does it get me in trouble hell yeah but its worth it lol.....I mad a promise to never be like my father and it seems like I'm him after all....the reason is I've been hurt by people that. Told me we are gonna last 4eva and if problems happen we are gonna take care of them.....lol when I'm ready to talk they go blank or act like shit ain't wrong.....I sumtime feel like a bitch trying to work shit out with these clowns.....maybe I should be alone forever.....either god put me here to love and help certain people and help them on their ways to whereva lol......or I just haven't found that one.......to be honest I was looking for that one.....but I really don't care for love the way I once did.....I feel as if love is a curse when it comes to me......on the real when I was acting a fool and cheating and sticking my dick in everygirl in the hood or in school they wanted to love me and talk things out all the things people need in a relationship......now that I'm a good guy and wants just one woman I can't get them to act as if they have a brain.......so say high to the nigga from b4 ladies I'm back on my bullshit and I don't care what you think......maybe ya brain will come back after I fuck ur sister or close friend.......shit maybe even ya momz